Cloudy Kingdom - ShapeLess WorLd of FreeDom..

我和你...的旋律

2009-09-09T11:46:00.000-07:00

繁忙城市...独居..边缘..
安静深夜...感觉..清晰..

我的平静...
你的潇洒..
.......无痕迹的...掩盖着 ..
我们的 ... 距离
和一直 ... 存在的.. 脆弱

我的固执...
你的自我...
拉着.. 我们.. 在原地徘徊..
让我们各自.. 在不同的旋律慢步..
......亦....
制造着...
足以..让.. 魔术师.. 嫉妒的.. 神秘世界...

然而..

我还 ..一直.. 跑着...
直到 ..感觉 ..不到空气时..
才.. 发现..
我忘了... 停下脚步...
忘了..呼吸

才.. 发现..
原来.. 我一直.. 拉着你的小手..
慌茫的往前..

而...
当我.. 醒来...
原来... 我和你... 的距离..
模糊的..
让我.. 平静.. 的接受...了...

a Tale of Dark Prince n Princess

2009-01-13T19:18:00.000-08:00

an Ancient T.a.L.e have it that:
"Dark Prince", son of the siLence, covered by Black glossy Flame flaring the entire body..

In the blink, u can see the Silver Light enchanting human eyes flowed from his HeaRT..
it might be quite attractin to most of creatures..
but jst to find the disappointment,
as the dark flame self-barricade from gettin Near.

The HearT waitin silently and lonely, in amidst of the cheerful dancing dark flames..
it builds up the image of the DarK Prince..
SiLence n Lonely in HeaRT with Cheerful n Passion on Surface.

the Wait seems to be Forever,
though in desperation,
the SiLver Light appears far away from the SkY..
An AngeL spread its wings and Light scatters to the HearT.
Unbelievably getting thru the black flame..

The AngeL is invisible yet the light is Near..
Relieving the HEarT.. to put an END of the everlasting SiLence..

The story floatin in the air, on how it ends.
On how when The Dark Prince finally meets the White AngeL
to form the greatest ending to the tale..
To end it with Dark Prince n Princess left to tell.

When they meet, will it means the tale as usual..
Will the usual ending of "Prince and princess live happily ever after"..
applied to Dark Prince n Princess...

Again.. i can only say...
We S.H.A.L.L See...

its me on 2009..

2009-01-04T05:33:00.001-08:00

There is a saying of:
"Taking the 1st step is like achieving half of the Success itself"

I have been read'n and listen'n to plentiful of wishing and hope of better 2009.
by doing so.... i believe that...
it's a nice way to engrave the confidence and relieve in one's heart and mind.
after an unprecedented year of 2008...

This post is to remind myself of something i'd like to do in 2009.
to embrace with the power of beginning and miracle of starting the new year of 2009.
These are the targets (or they call it "Resolution") for my year of 2009:
1. SLeep early (<12 nite) and wake up early (<7 morning) except for weekend.
2. Eat modest breakfast, a bit heavier lunch and light dinner (most of the time will be oatmeal, if possible).
3. Exercising more, jogging at least once a month.
4. Try more new stuffs, target: Hot Yoga, Yong Chun, cycling.
5. Read more books, target: Ben Graham, Warren Buffett, Phil Fisher, Liam Hearn, Stephanie Meyer etc..
6. S.T.o.P diversifying the attention, keep focus on the one that i prefer and suitable for me.
7. Meeting up with ppl that i should have met up earlier in my life.
8. S.T.o.P being too ignorant, Lazy and too careless free.
9. Just Continue to be myself.

Let's dun regret the future me by when he is looking back and be proud of what i have achieved of. and i can only say ... we shall see..

StaR Buck in Xmas

2008-12-04T03:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday my colleague TF informed me dat
"Starbuck is going to give Free drink on 5-7 PM tomorrow".. (which is today)..
She was about to send me the promotion pic which i rejected for i was already anticipatin for dat from last Monday.

So quite obviously dat i wouldn't miss the rare chance..
for i had got myself 7 greentea frappes just for last month alone.

I went to Vivocity level 1 starbuck (there ar 2 starbucks), its a long queue as expected.
but it caught me by surprise as i had only waited for <20 mins..
ohh great.. en yes... greentea frappe is available.. (all drinks are free - only tall size though).
so i got myself a greentea frappe.. my fav drink for now.. (some1 told me its not gud to drink something so sweet occasionally.. ehmm she is rite.. but i jst can't resist)..

but i have no idea whether is it becos i din giv donation at starbuck door (for charity) that..
the frappe had a lot of rough ice and few small ice cube...
ehmmm.. see .. I am jst dat sensitive..
ehmmm.. maybe i was expecting them... to say "Hey u, we are watchin ya".. :p

Ok jst to wrap this up..
the free starbuck is to celebrate XMas, so it will most probably be on every December..
lets get another for next year then.. if starbuck is still around then..
which i am sure it will be the case....
CheeRs.. Greentea Frappe Rozk...

a - S.H.o.C.K - on X'Mas Month..

2008-12-01T02:48:00.000-08:00

Tales spoken that X'Mas is the Cheerful Moment..Magical happiness..
is that just a mere beautified tale?
Wateve it is, there is always hope when we reach XMas month.

So finally we have reached our X'Mas month.
Our dept has started to plan for xmas party..
Everyone seem to be expecting the cheerful moment in a way or another.
it's at least a moment of relief after full year of fire fighting, burning-out at work.

Today is the 1st day of X'Mas month 2008, the right moment to wish for a brighter months even years ahead.

So here it is, as the story will be told by itself, my beginning of XMas month 2008 goes:
* We was having our biweekly IT dept meeting this morning (9 AM sharp - with not intention to promote any brand).
It was as expected.. another IT meeting with us reporting our working progress to Big Boss.
and as usual, quite alot of lecturing from Big Boss,
(my gut feel starting to tell me that this was not a perfect way to start the 1st day of XMas month)

Eventually the dept meeting finished by about 11 AM, and we went for lunch (with our OP members: HM, HL and me).
It was a nice moment as usual as well.

and to cut the story short, the things went just fine until we received a sms from our beloved Manager saying that he wanted to meet us in the meeting room just for 5 mins.

We tot it would be another meeting we had previously as he guided us on how to resolve our issues (and guess wat, we found that we were actually enjoying that kinda of meeting).
He is a super nice guy.. I could easily find myself guilty just by looking at him.

So we just went to 3rd floor serapong room as usual and he was there as usual as well waiting for us.
after a few chit chat and jokes as we normally do.
he started the session by telling us a S.H.o.C.K message that he is going to tender his resignation.
We were all feeling nothing but SHOCK...

I still couldn't believe it that after work i sent him a sms tellin him that,
I really wish that he will tell me that this is just his another joke...
but i knoe that it is obviously NOT.

I finally started to realize that either i am so easily touched by this kind of weak feelin or he is just dunno since when have became one of my reason of staying in my current job.
I believe that it is obviously the later that convincing me more ...

this feeling is like losing your leader during the war.
but again, wateve he has decided, i believe it would serve him better.
its always not easy to let go of someone nice.
but to let the nice to be greater good, it would be worth a try.

Anyway all i can say is all the best as i have said in my sms to him during his just passed Bday.
"Wish you all the happiness, health, money and prosperity in the world"

is this just another "c'est la vie" ... i really dunno knoe..
Do we have to be fierce .. just in order not to be bullied by other people..
Can't we just be nice although other ppl takes advantage from us
let it be a food of thought... but i definitely give the initial a big NO.

My Digest for "Unprecedented" 2008

2008-11-28T10:22:00.000-08:00

"2008" has been and still is an unprecedented year..

Beijing Olympic 888 (8 aug 08) signaled the bLoody deep red to the Stock Market, chained to Financial Market and followed by Main Market...
BLOODY Year..

This thread is JUST to remind us, (more to myself) of these following "Key-points":

1. WorLD in Recession - 2008

Market plunged pretty badly during Oct 2008 (which we might call it bottom).
Again it might not bottom as the bottom now seems like bottomless.

This time the virus hit the heart of the world (currently obviously is still America) just to spread out widely to the rest of the world:

* Subprime Mortgage in America
- Started from Dec 2007 until NOW..
Note: Mortgage is given to ppl who obviously cannot afford to pay.
Next mortgage casualties MIGHT be Europe and last but not least emerging market.

* Credit Crunch
- Due to Lehman Brother bankruptcy (15 Sept 2008)
AIG saved by Government (14 Sept 2008) - $ 40 Billion
Merryll Lynch sold itself to Bank of America (14 Sept 2008) - $50 Billion
Goldman Sach saved by Warren Buffett (24 Sep 2008) - $5 Billion
- Market Confidence Ruined
- Banks' market value hardly hit, causing Credit Crunch.
- Credit Crunch eased due to Bail out from world governments and Central banks cutting interest rate (ar we movin toward socialism?)
- Stock market plunged deeply by End of Oct 2008, leaving most of the investor in deep shxx (yep u ar rite, I am not spared)
- Oil hiked to >$145 in June 08 just to slump to below $50
- Oct and Nov 2008 have the same keyword "volatility", market could swing up or down for 10% in a day.

2. My personal life (in recession?)
* Falling in L.O.V.E with Starbuck Greentea Frappe during my trip to Bangkok (6-13 Aug 2008), it has been my loyal weekend companion since then.
* First time watching F1 Live in Singapore (first F1 Nite race)
* First time working during the New Year Eve (enjoying SEntosa beach party)
* 3rd time finding someone special and enjoying talking to her for a long long time.
* First time renting a full flat in Singapore (share with my best 4 "gays" housemate) - address had been censored due to overwhelming responses.
* First time bought Stocks
* First time have Personal Financial Report, insurance and fund.

Ehmm ehmm yep yep..
u ar rite.. its not end of year 2008 yet..
I am just being a bit "anxious" that i might forget to note down this interesting and "Unprecedented" year of C.Ri.SiS somewhere that I might lose it from my mind in future glorious years.

Let's wrap this up once we pass through 2009.

H.e.R.D vs H.o.P.P-ing

2008-11-07T09:00:00.000-08:00

H.u.M.A.N ....is NOT.... A.N.i.M.A.L ...
i definitely AGREE

Human is HighesT quality AnimaL ...
i definitely CAN NOT DiSaGRee as weLL...

i believe Human Should and Need to live as Herd.

the word "Herd" as u could easily find by GoogL-ing:
"A herd is a large group of animals. The term is usually applied to mammals, particularly"... bla bla bla...(another 3 Long paragraphs)..

in simple layman term: "a group of animaLs that LiVE or are Kept TOGETHER"

We, as human, have behavior to follow others and live as a society.
in contrast, when time passes by, we always try to be "Different"
to be U.N.i.Q.U.E

Keepin yourself LonG enough in same herd will make u tempted to HoP and H.O.P and MoVe forward to find a "Different" bunch of ppl ... just to fulfill your need to be "Different"...

But in the end of the sTory.. the same ending is lying there..
You realize you are just falling into Another Herd...

and YeT.. you will start another same sTory ..
that you have already known what the ending will turn out to be..

Having said that, each SToRies have their own MoraLe and Memories that waiTin for you to discover and to memorize through out your LiFe..

JusT to CoLorize and CheeR up this ShorT and emptyNess LiFe...

its a Story of a SouL..

2008-07-16T05:51:00.001-07:00

SToRy of a SouL..

This is a story about oNe Ordinary human's souL..
Do take note that it should serve as CLARIFICATION rather than EXPOSURE..

Recently I meet a souL . . .
the oNe with an Ordinary HearT.. BuilT of GLasses ..With HoLes and EmpTiness..
Again like the wise one always said: "The incompleteness is where all Beautyness begins.."

The HoLeS are meanT to be complimented by Other SoULs..
That's the whoLe idea of being a SocieTy..

BuT agaiN.. i BeLieve People should find The RighT souL
and NOT presume all souLs are mutually related..
You can'T and I hope you Won'T Force the wrong SouL to be with ..

Therefore..
Let me just embrace myself to name the few essential "wrong SouL" for me:

1. UNTRUTHFULNESS SOUL

2. OVER-CALCULATIVE SOUL

3. OVER-SMART SOUL

4. OVER ACTING-SMART SOUL

5. EGO-CENTRIC SOUL

if you feel you are within the above ..
I apology for once and I won't say it to you ever again..
that you might get hurt or simply ignored without any notice..

The best way is just don't get close to me. Thanks..
by a LosT SouL === 16th July 2008,...

山雨欲临.. 风满楼
Winds in the Towers to serve as the Sign of MounTain's STorM..

Dota Ultimate Sport Olympic..

2008-04-22T20:35:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time,
in the land of "peace and prosperity" which we named it -DoTA world.
There will be a Ultimate Sport Olympic..
The creatures in Dota World call it DoTA BloodLess League..

There are few sports to be held during the League such as:
1. Riding Skill - Participant from Chaos Knight, Luna MoonFang to Mirana
2. 100 M Sprint - Participant from Troll, Bounty Hunter, Anti Mage, spectre to blood seeker
3. Shooting - Lion, butcher, Luna, Lina, traxex, bone clinkz to Sniper
4. Skating - Lich, morphling to Atropos
5. Jumping - Everyone who can get the support from Tiny
6. etc..

However, the story is not about the game itself but is about who to host Olympic event.
Who is going to hold Olympic Torch?
Everyone nominated themselves except Chaos Knight and Razor..
the reason being they already have one and refuse to give up their own torch.

The winner is chosen after all tedious hompimpa rounds.
the winner is the one and only, Pandaren BrewMaster..

Since Pandaren is the winner, the olympic is then decided by all to be hosted by Sentinel.
Then.. days after days.. nights after nights...
finally we are about to reach the tremendous Dota Olympic events.

BUT there has been a rumour of Raijin Clan riot asking for more respect as their hatred of seeing pandaren to be olympic torch star. The romour also saying that the clan has been demolished by Sentinel Allies. which in actual fact is not really the way it is.

Eventually, the rumour has been abused by scourge to hijack the olympic events..
Then the silly beasts has been fooled to hold Dota worldwide Demonstration including:
The Hogs (barathrum & Strygwyr Clans) seeking for blood and fight
Birds (viper, Visage, Harbinger Clans) spreading poisonous spell
Monkeys (Mogul Clan)
and followed by Goat Lucifer, Orang utan Naix, Ant, Spider, zombie(yes considered animal) and other animals that u can or can't even imagine.

The super SiLLy acts caused by envy and fears of losing power, in the end ruins the marvelous Olympic spirit, ruins the pride of being human of being unity as a world community.
its not about the olympic, its about POWER, GOLD and CONTROL.

The issue brought out is nothing to do with the event,
is something unreasonable and obviously Stupid acts.
Being a human is not to get into hole others dig, but to follow your judgement only after you clearly know what is the actual fact behind the whole issue.

Let's Support the Olympic and stop being used by others
Let's just Be Human. Human Being..

Dota Olympic Event 2008 - Banzai

I am fallin in luv with u

2008-04-09T08:31:00.000-07:00

For these recents weeks, started from Feb 08 (after Chinese NY)..
I am falling in luv with you...
Initially I tot I jst wanna fill up my curiosity on you..
Have been watchin and analysin you closely day after day..
I can't focus in my work anymore, keep findin time and chance to peep on u ..
to watch ur up and down closely..
I dunno wats wrong with me..
Are u so attracting me? or its jst a curiosity killin a silly cat..

I dunno wat I try to achieve in you, only thinkin u ar my future en my destiny..
you are so volatile.. can't understand you at all..
esp in this timing.. when the tremour is everywer..
No Matter what, let me try,
I believe I need the failure to usher me through to the next level..

Put the faith in me, let me committed till the end..
I won't try to conquer u, but will endure u and be with u..
Let me feel and hold this appetite and passion longer than ever be..

11.44 PM escortin by Joanna wong's song..
its a jazz..

Sway-iNg Xmas DawN..

2007-12-24T13:23:00.000-08:00

My XP Vista theme clocks showin 5.25 AM without any hesitation..
It should be already dawn ba..
.. aniwei I just stepped my trail into the X'mas 2007...
Merry X'mas av1.. esp for those greeted me just now..

Just finished my ext user module exploration.
the outcome quite embracing, thanks to it.. I can carry on to enjoy some songs.

Dunno why suddenly my mind reminds me of this song called "sway" by michael buble..
I managed to get my ear on it though.
it really "bend with me" "swings with me" .. yeah I did..
and another song called "quando quando quando" .. ohh I remember this song..
I jst realize I fall in luv with this rythme..
is this Jazz? Dun care.. it jst nicee... the rythme en lyric so simple en it jst makes u sway..
jst raise ur finger and hips (opss) and swing around..

Aniwei.. this xmas eve jst gone.. I did somehow celebrate though I din purposely do it
* Went for "National Treasure" flick.. its a simple idea movie.. but simply enough to entertain me.
* Had 2 games of DOTA with Spore Dota Gankz.. heyy .. u all "gays" rockz..
-- Lost by seconds.. wakaka.. my Troll Warlord came out too late..
* Lookin for msg from someone who might (i am quite sure) already fell into lollipop dream..
* Enjoyin my ext user module exploration - I managed to put a simple dot on it.. (done).
* Enjoyin Michael buble's songs.
Yeah.. it swings.. it sways .. maybe I will start to love jazz ..
it will be a good new thing for upcoming new year though..

Finally I start to relook into my blog... (inspired by Ant Materia.. not really ..but sort of ..)
and yep.. here it goes.. and ended as well..

5.42 AM Done.. (ohh bloggin does take times)
P.S.
the beautiful Dawn just comes to greet the earth..
How many dawn to go before we realize its too late...
...that ...we might never see it in some near future ...

Xu CLoudy
25 Dec 2007

Harsh Cry of the Heron

2007-11-17T07:05:00.000-08:00

"A Strong Tree on a Fertile Land..
Hero and Princess living in an endless Love Story to be told..
JusT to end it with a Lie..
A White Liar to be punished to death..
to put a dot in the fairy tale..
to paint a beauty of the Lady and Flame in Heart ..
ThaT only left a Heron to CrY "

Xu Cloudy

锁着泪..换..妳安心的离开

2007-11-17T07:02:00.000-08:00

锁着泪..换..妳安心的离开

二十七日, 九月, 二零零七...

“真诚” 与 “祈望” …换不回….最后的 “时间” 与 “回亿”

无常…

无助…

只有.. 勉强锁着眼泪…

来换取…妳安心的离去
...才发现
原来　低着头　眼泪就无法　阻碍　的　相涌而下

只有... 咬着牙根
让妳走...

妳的大爱和爱護
永存于我们的心与精神

永远无法忘怀

....

Double Surprise.. Attackkk..

2006-12-22T01:25:00.000-08:00

Friday, 22th DEc 2006

a Too Free day ..
This is my 1st reGain free day..
in the morning.............
Wake up too early.. more or less ..6 AM..
and thought dat it din seem rite.. I fall to sleep again..

EnJoy a Finest day ever..
A GreaT nice Windy morning...
ReaDinG my greaT 'Zi Chuan' Novel..
Until 12.28..Lilis, Sugi en Welly ask me to go for the lunch
in GolDen-Kota Mas.. enjoyin Deli, Joni en Lilis Bday TreaT..

Its a ReaL gud LuncH..
We got SI Dosen
(Sugi, Timo, Yuniah, Ronny, Johan en Nanok..
en Sk2 ?? I still counted as part of UIB today)...
and Assistants..
(Yudy, Deli, Welly, Joni, Lilis, Selamat en Pinkan.. )
I hope I din lose any..
Note : with Timo around.. anythings seem Happier en brighter ..
You ar a Batam Stephen Chow in my version..

Ooouu..
Yeah..Again.. a Present (a cute big 'Lumba2') surprised me..
It was a double surprise attack..
I have received a nice BlacK Jacket from assistants just by lasT Nite..
before I leave my office room..
(it was from Welly, Joni, Lilis, Deli en Yudy.. handed by Welly en Deli to me..)
Thank u all.. realli greaT ...

and in my way walkin home.. after lunch
Suddenly... I hear...
The song 'Zai Jian' from Zhang Zen Yue..
Whisper from my mp3 player...
Seems like it is a request song for me..
Really touchin by then..

Still Can remember..
Dely said dis.."When u see the GifT .. Just remember us"
yeah .. gal...I shall..
Not only when lookin at the GifT..
'Cause u ALL ar aLreaDy the GiFt for me..
Thanks to all..

Xu Cloudy
13.13 AM in BCS
after bought a 'cel-pan'
Note : Is this my 1st time.. using warnet in Batam?
Haha.. 'Ye yo jin tian'

Cloudy Kingdom - ShapeLess WorLd of FreeDom..

我 和 你...的旋律

a Tale of Dark Prince n Princess

its me on 2009..

StaR Buck in Xmas

a - S.H.o.C.K - on X'Mas Month..

My Digest for "Unprecedented" 2008

H.e.R.D vs H.o.P.P-ing

its a Story of a SouL..

SToRy of a SouL..

Dota Ultimate Sport Olympic..

I am fallin in luv with u

Sway-iNg Xmas DawN..

Harsh Cry of the Heron

锁着泪..换..妳安心的离开

锁着泪..换..妳安心的离开

Double Surprise.. Attackkk..

我和你...的旋律